I bought a flat of pansies today from a friend’s nursery. This is headline news at my house because of one fact: I have a black thumb. My mums from October? Dead already. My summer garden? Pathetic. It’s to the point now where I don’t even need to look to see if a plant is an annual or a perennial. Either way, it ain’t coming back next year!
You know, I think it’s my eternal optimism–my inner Tigger, if you will–that keeps me buying plants. And applying for the Disney Moms Panel. And entering my first writing contest. Because deep within, I believe these things CAN happen. And I’m just stubborn enough to try. Again and again if necessary.
- I will make my garden grow.
- I can see myself in the pink jacket. (That’s the official color for the female Moms Panelists.)
- I know I would swoon to see something I wrote in print.
Despite the obstacles & the odds, I’m gonna keep on trying.Because as much as I love being a stay at home mom, or being a “dirt lawyer” (real estate), they can’t “define” me. My kids will grow up and fly from the nest (at least, that’s what all parents hope!). And likewise, my J-O-B is not who I am. I can’t limit myself to those labels because they will change and then what? I don’t want to hit a midlife identity crisis simply because I “tabled” so many aspirations thinking I’m OK with the status quo. Like Ariel says, “I want more.”
A great anthem for this kind of thinking is the song Anyway by Martina McBride. Here are my favorite lyrics:
You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain’t good
When I pray it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway
My garden may get a few weeds, suffer the wrath of a frost, or never take root. But I’m not going to stop tilling the soil or adding fertilizer. I’m going to plant those seeds anyway.
How about you-how does YOUR garden grow?